Portraits

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Christian Freet

After I bought my first camera about twelve years ago, I probably took 300 pictures for each one that made me stop and consider whether I liked it. Obviously intentionality was not my strength.

Back then landscape was my ambition, but too much work is necessary for that. And I’m a lazy creative.

The media file [Portraits] is by CallahanFreet.

The memory of a moment is all I care about in these pictures nowadays. I'm unsure if I was ever comfortable with my eye for imagery until I heard someone say they cared more for how a picture made them feel than whether or not it was techinically good. The validation was nice.

I carried my camera to every family event because at least portraits were accessible. Not that I knew anything about shooting. For instance, I often stuck that thing it into my niece’s face and simply pressed the trigger to shoot 20 or 30 frames at a time. It wasn’t always a great approach.

But, every now and then I made something I liked. It didn’t look like any other portrait I’d seen by then, and the appeal to me was still unknown. It took while for me to let go of what I thought it should look like and to be comfortable with what it was. Of course, the process of my acceptance was more about me than it was a creative understanding. But maybe that vulnerability is the point.