School seems like a sham. What did it teach me other than to compare myself to my peers and lament my inadequacy? Thank goodness since I left academics my understanding of the world has changed drastically, and for the better.

Despite what I believed, logic has its faults. Back in the day we humans didn’t understand it and we survived. Sure, we were occupied with the constant task of survival, but at least we didn’t spend our free time wasting thoughts on philosophy and meaning. We just lived, and wondered at the beauty of sunrise after enduring the night.

Contrary to the message embeded in all these entries, I simply want to think less. Moving here to Alaska made me realize that living requires it.

Before we moved, logic was a persistent failure so I tend to ignore it now. It only taught me to avoid the pain of cold and to fear darkness; it never mentioned those fears are new. I blame my education for succombing to the comfort. Sure — if I even have free will — I made my own conclusions. But there is no service in the disregard of living simply to be alive and to assume modern values are superior.