September 2014, Cannon Beach, Oregon. That tiny spec of a person is me walking away from him. He didn’t know what was going on with me then. I told him some time after we got engaged three months later.

I assumed he was going to ask me to marry him that day. When I realized that’s not what was going to happen I felt extremely angry with myself. Angry because I was so self absorbed in that moment. How arrogant of me.

It seems so long ago. No more assuming. My reality is not the reality of the next person. I learn everyday to stop trying to force my reality on the next person. It is hard. Hard because my reality is becoming more clear and with that clarity comes the realization I am out growing those around me. This is a natural progress I have been going against. Time to let go and let my reality flow.