I back slid this week. That then led to absolutely berating myself for having negative emotions. Which then led to conversation after conversation trying to get to the truth behind my negative feelings.

We are creatures of habit. I’m still focusing on changing some of my habits. It is so easy for me to fall back into complaining about this and that. Complaining about who hurt me and why. Complaining about the past. My focus is trying to discuss and move forward. I literally have to realize not everyone wants to discuss and get to the bottom of things before moving on. Sweeping things under the rug is so much easier.

I remember how bad I would freeze up when confrontation would arise. The thought of discussing my feelings was so far from reality. I just didn’t know how to have a conversation about my thoughts and feelings. I think this stems from the years of overlooking and sweeping under the rug from my family. I’ll never understand that aspect of my upbringing.

Again, I’m focusing on changing past habits. Letting go of the negative emotional garbage I’ve been hoarding.

If you focus on the hurt, you will continue to suffer. If you focus on the lesson, you will continue to grow.

Many thanks, peace, love, and light to those with me as I continue to grow.